Adnan's Rant

me bitching (not recommended read, i just needed an outlet)

2005-06-23T10:43:00.000-07:00

why am i so stressed out lately? my life seems to have taken extremeties in all of its aspects. there are points where i feel truly happy and blessed, moments when i feel like i cannot contain my joy, that i am the luckiest person in the world, and there there are moments when i feel extremely depressed and hopeless. my future is so freaking uncertain, it stresses me out. i cant take it. i want to talk abt it with ppl, and i do talk to a couple of ppl abt it, but i dont think anyone understands my exact situation. i seek counselling from friends, i talk to them as much as i can, but my mind is wierd, there are so many things going on at the same time in my mind, and i can never explain all of them. i only succeed in painting half the picture, and people reprimand me for being too paranoid and for being a worrywart. the only person i can talk to is autumn, but she is so far away right now, and these are things i need to talk to her about face to face. no one seems to be understanding how much pressure im in, and its kinda pushing me into a mini depression, although im fighting it.

another post

2005-06-07T01:21:00.000-07:00

so..im halfway through my stay in bangladesh, and it has been interesting if nothing else. true, i complain abt boredom and everything but for me, boredom inevitably leads to self reflection and self evaluation, something that i wouldnt have done otherwise. im always too caught up in things to actually sit down and thnk about what im doing, where im going with life. then again, theres something called too much thinking, and i feel like ive reached that point..i feel like just getting up and doing something.

im coming back to portland on july 12th. im not sure abt it , but i think autumn and rob are picking me up at the airport. i dont actually know whos giving me the ride, but autumns taken the responsibility of figuring that bit out. then im moving in with autumn and brie for the rest of summer. altho i have been told that moving in with your girlfriend is a big deal, i dont think its going to be that complicated. autumn and i both want to do this, and we think its going to be really fun. also, its not like its just me and autumn, im also living with brie, so its not what people think it is. im really looking forward to spending time with autumn again, but im also excited abt being with brie, jon, nik, hassan and all. and then theres the small matter of actually finding a job on campus once i get there. that should be reaaaally fun.

so, each and every summer that i do come back i become startled at how much people tend to change. i know its a two way thing, im changing as much as the others are, but it still catches me off guard each and every time. i find that with some friends, all we can do is be nostalgic and talk abt the past, as if were desperate to hold onto some bond which is gone now. the only way we can connect is what we had before, not what we have now. its a bit of a shame, really..

a whole bunch of movies are coming out this summer, and im really psyched about that. theres episode 3, which im dying to watch on the big screen, and batman begins, which im dying to watch, period. ill see if i can convince enough ppl to put off watching batman until i come back so that we can all watch em together..

the only ppl from portland who im in regular contact with are autumn, brie, jon, hassan and brendon. charles is a lost cause, his life is pretty much consumed by world of warcraft, so i havent even talked to him online once so far. i heard hes moved in on campus, which means that we might actually get to hang out over summer..

in my mind now, i have come to accept tht im an adult now, and that its abt time i start thinking like one. its not like i have brought abt major changes in my personality coz of that .. its more like subtle small changes in who i am has convinced me of ths change. previously i always used to look at family for support, but now i have to draw out tht support from inside me. i know theyre still gonna be there for me, but i dont want to have to rely on them anymore. thats another reason why im coming back early, to see if i can deal with everyday life without the school or my family dictating me. and to be perfectly honest, i think im ready.

well, thats about all i have to say for now. but this really helped me a lot, helped me put into words what ive been thinking for a while. maybe i should do this more often.

Back into the world of blogging!

2005-05-10T20:44:00.000-07:00

Wow... this feels wierd after a hiatus of abt 6 months or so...anyways....semester was awesome...looking forward to next semester too...no offense to any of my past roommates...but i cant wait to have my own room.
This past semester went by a bit too past for my liking. Dont know why. But i kinda wish i had more time to spend with people who i know and love, Autumn, Brendon, Charles, Brie. But next semester should kick ass...apart from that little matter of thesis.
So, where do I go from here? Well, for starters, Im gonna be spending a fuckload of time with Diya, Diti, Sabrina, Sadaat and Ziyan (and Naweed when he turn up!) in Dhaka. Should be cool! Theres always my job, where I will earn money! (Mental note : Dont blow it off in one night ). Thatll go on for a couple of months, until early August, when Ill be back inPortland living with Autumn and Brie.
Its wierd, realizing that I wont see people like Andy and Stephan ever again. Despite being a dick, Andy was a fun person to hang out with, and we became pretty good friends over time.
My contact number back home is gonna be 880-2-8621922. Ill have a cell phone too, and Ill let you all know that number soon enough.

Reality TV

2005-01-14T14:35:00.000-08:00

So I found out last night that Charles is taking the semester off and he wont be gracing us with his presence this semester...while this is crappy news to begin with...it has greater ramifications for me personally....it means that I have to go and find me a new roomie....I just dont feel like rooming with someone who is a total random stranger...so at the moment, my list includes (but is not limited to) Brendon, Jason K. , and Alex...
Brendon suggested that maybe we should have a reality TV series based off of that where I present the contestents with a rose every week and an unlucky contestent gets to go back home every week at the end of each show...it sounds promising...as it will have its fair share of drama, intrigue, romance and gaming...now all I need is a name for said show...and we can totally have Charles make a guest appearance in one show as a special guest...that should make things real interesting...
i dont know...i was kinda counting on rooming with charles for the whole semester...and itll be wierd not having him around...
but I digress...
so Im coming back on Monday the 17th at noon...trouble is, Art is supposed to pick me up...but I havent heard from him yet...so if someone could call him up on Sunday and nag him into calling me up i would really appreciate that...otherwise im gonna have to think of some other way to get to school...suck...

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2005-01-09T14:49:00.000-08:00

So I got one more week to go through before I'm back to school...I dont know about the others, but I'm really looking forward to starting off the new semester...and this time I'm gonna do everything in my power to pump up my GPA...
So I realized that I havent told anyone about what happened on New Year's eve...on that night...I got to go to this show that they were having at Wilshire Blvd...they closed off four streets and an intersection...they tried to do something as cool as the New York Time Square routine...but it obviously dint quite work...nonetheless...we had a pretty good time...apart from the occasional drunk people...honestly seeing them in action has strengthened my resolve to drastically reduce my alcohol consumption....nonetheless...there was a performance by the Killers (which was absolutely top notch)....and there were a whole bunch of djs doing their thing...i havent clubbed in a long ass time...so i kinda felt out of place...but everyone else was having a blast...and that carried me through....
it was really interesting...we dint feel tired or anything at all while we were there...but once we realized that we have been up on our feet moving and dancing for six hours...fatigue just decided to step in...
all in all, it was just a kickass experience...im gonna be staying back in portland next winter...so i think im gonna keep an eye out for something like this over here as well..
i dont know why...but i got a whole lot of e mails from my friends back home...coz they dont know who im feeling alienated from (they prolly read my previous posts...thats the only possible explanation i have)...and im gonna have to spend a whole lot of time answering them back...and apparantly theres even more drama unfolding back home...and a lot of it has to do with me...*sigh*...sometimes things like these suck monkeyballs...
ive been thinking abt wht im gonna do after graduation and where im gonna move to...and altho i really really really want to go back to bangladesh someday...i dont feel that the time is right yet...meanwhile i might just move to cali, or stay in oregon...or hell, just move back with all my friends in canada...something im debating over...

quick gaming update....

2005-01-05T15:15:00.000-08:00

ratchet and clank: up your arsenal is such a great game...its got one of the best multiplayer deathmatch games i have ever seen!!
im also busy dealing with fight night 2004, champions of norrath, espn nba 2k5, socom navy seals, xenosaga, and gta san andreas!!
so many games...so little time!!

Random thoughts..

2005-01-03T15:40:00.000-08:00

So its been a while since I last posted on this site. I wonder if anyone bothers to check this anymore...whatever...

I talk about the major issues in my life with people I know and love anyways..so theres not much to talk about there...instead, I suppose I am going to talk about some of the more minor issues that are keeping me occupied.

The most important issue to me right now is my friends back home. God knows I love each and every one of them, but at the same time, I feel like I am becoming so much more different than them. I seem to get along so much better with my friends in college now, and while it is a wonderful feeling in itself, the fact that I cant connect with my old friends anymore bugs me to no end. It's something I really want to remedy, but I'm kinda afraid to do so as well. I left home at the end of summer amid a lot of drama and tension, and it is something I am not looking forward to confront when I do go back. I feel like there are only a handful of people left back home who I can truly connect with, and that makes me feel horribly lonely from time to time.

Then there's my own life. It is at its most unstable right now. I pushed off thinking about the future until now, but I cant do that any longer. Ill have to apply to graduate school very soon, and that is going to be the key decision in my life. There are so many factors involved. I want to stay back in the northwest because that has simply become my home away from home. Leaving home once was hard enough for me, Im not sure if Im strong enough to do it again. Thankfully there are some things in my life that I can hold on to, and it is these givens that are keeping me sane.

There are good things happening in my life too. After previous relationship fiascos, I finally seem to be in one which I can count on at least for the time being. No one knows what the future holds, but it seems to be going great for now. Thats something that keeps me going right now, and it couldnt have happened at a better time for me.

Going back to the topic of friends, it almost feels like I am evolving too fast as an individual for my own liking. Just last spring semester, I would have identified myself as a gamer, as I was involved in so many gaming activities. This semester however, I was only casually involved in gaming, the only gaming I did was video games. I dont know, maybe its not that big of a deal, but it almost feels like Im drifting again, and thats the last place I want to be at.

Now, on a more positive note, here are the things I am looking forward to next year.

I am excited about friends, old and new. I dont know about the others, but I feel that I have reached a point when my friends understand me better than anyone else, and whenever I am in trouble, I will count on them to bail me out, and I expect them to count on me when they need help too. Its something wonderful, being able to be with your friends from when you wake up until you go to sleep, and I hope that no one takes this for granted.
I am excited about rooming with Charles for six more months at the very least. After mixed fortunes with my previous roommates, I finally have one who is just like me in the random gaming sense. Its like, out of nowhere, one of us will decide to play multiplayer or co-op halo or something at some god awful hour, and the other one will be willing to jump in too. Its a good feeling, having a friend who is willing to humor you this much, and I look forward to the day when Ill actually start kicking some ass in Halo multiplayer or something.
I am excited about my other friends. I know Brendons been a bit preoccupied this last semester, but Im still looking forward to hanging out with him as much as possible. Same goes to my fellow berserker Nik and Hassan. Brie and Jon are always fun whenever they are around. I think that Ill finally start visiting Cory and Andy with some regularity. God knows that theyve been bitching all semester abt me not dropping by.
I am looking forward to jump starting the video gaming aspect of the gaming society. Brendon and I were both slacking off last semester, but we've decided to make up for that this semester.
I am excited about my own academic career prospects. Now that Im about to be done with all the tough classes, I am going to start taking easy classes that last three semesters just to pump up my GPA. Hopefully thatll take me to a good graduate program. I realize that my GPA is not as good as it could be, but at the same time, I have faith in what I can do, and I know that if I work hard enough, I will be able to pull it off.
I am happy about the relationship I am in right now. It is like an anchor for me, and it is something that I can take to be a constant at least for the short run. Autumn and I seem to have this understanding of each other, and its a great feeling to be in that situation. Right now Im in LA and Im missing her a lot, but Im also psyched about going back to campus and spending more time with her.
I am excited about having my own life and existance. All my life, I was known as the son of my parents, and I tried to carve out my own existance from where I was. It is not somethng that they necessarily understood, but I am grateful to them for bearing with me nonetheless. I feel that although I have spent a lot of time with my friends, I have also spent a lot of time with myself over the past few years during which I have learned more about myself. Some aspects of myself I am proud of, and then there are some which require work. I realize that I am not a finished product by any means, but I also feel like I am getting somewhere. And it is something I am excited about.

I guess what is key to me right now is the voyage Im about to embark on. It is something that scares me, yes, Ill admit that much, but I also feel that at the end of the day, when my time is up, I will be able to look back at my life, realize that I have had more happy days than sad ones, and move on without any regrets.

worse....or better?

2004-09-17T22:24:00.000-07:00

wow...this has been an unbelievably confusing couple of weeks...starting from me trying to sort out my own life and my priorities at the moment...down to trying to comprehend the unbelievably complicated rules of warhammer...it has been complex to say the very least...but i digress..

first off...i have finally finished off knights of the old republic...such a kickass game...i swear...diti first got me going on the entire star wars shabang...and now that ive actually completed the game...i feel that my experience regarding star wars is even more complete...so awesome!!

secondly...ultimate frisbee...im playing every fucking day of the semester...EVERY GODDAMN DAY!! its insane...and while ppl might think tht i might be playing a bit too much of frisbee...they just dont get it!!

thirdly...socializing...so many awesome freshmen this year...its so kickass! this is the one year when i will not be complaining abt the freshmen...

next...studies....well...it really hasnt taken off by any means...but im about to start focussing from this weekend onwards..so itll be interesting...

hm...heres another interesting bit...i think that ill be joining the army once im done studying...ive kept it within myself...during which ive been giving it a WHOLE lotta thought...and i think that that is the way to go for me...

thats all for now...therell be more updates coming up later on...in a couple of months or so..BWAHAHAHA!

Im back!! WOOHOO!

2004-08-17T13:40:00.000-07:00

Awesome!! Im back in LA right now!! Its pretty kickass...Im getting about to finishing psi-ops now...god that games a pain in the ass!
Been spending the last couple of days helping my cousin move her stuff about...and doing a bit of socializing too...Ive finally gotten used to the new sleep cycle as well...so thats good news...
Brendon called me up a couple of times...that was pretty awesome..and we came up with a whole lot of 'ur mom' jokes...theres this one that is a pure gem...I gave it an A+...ask him for more details...
I cant access any of the IM programs from LA...so my personal messages to some select ppl are appearing here right now...
TO DIYA, SABRINA, AND DITI: Miss u all craploads...mail me when u guys have the time...
TO NAIMA: thinking abt you of course!!...next summer will be pretty awesome!...so start counting down the days on the calendar!
TO NAWEED: dude...so kicked ur ass in gaming all thru summer...do not despair tho...keep on practicing...maybe next summer ill have to put in some effort in kicking ur ass!
TO SADAAT AND ZIYAN: hey boys...dont forget to pick up the animes from my place!! and Ziyan..take good care of my south park DVDs!
TO CHARLESSS: dude!! call me up when u get the time...and u still havent told me how ur plans of moving in on campus earlier are working out!!
TO BRENDONATOR: keep on calling bitch!! u pretty much know wht ive been up to!
TO JONATHAN AND BRIEANNA: whts ur contact number in cali cali?? think ur gonna be in portland on the 22nd?

k...so im done with the individualized messages...nawesome!!

made it thru the airport this time without any incident!! thank god for that!! im gonna be reaching portland on the 22nd of august at noon..dunno the exact plan yet..think m dad's colleague is picking me up from there...i need to work something out with charles and everyone abt how were gonna partaaay like its 1699 on that day...

so ive totally decided on my new project for next year...I am not gonna cut my hair all year and dye it blue or something...think its gonna turn out awesome!!...also id like to work on my school grades and improve them...but...my hair comes first!!

so my aunts having a bunch of ppl over for tomorrow nite...and theyre all old...oh joy! more ppl to torment me and my precious cheeks!!

my brothers settled down in his college fairly well...so thats good...

thats pretty much it...ill be writing another post really really really really really really really soon...so stay tuned...same blog time! same blog channel! (And with that reference to the Adam West Batman show...I think Im gonna go and bludgeon myself to death!)

leaving on a jet plaaaane!!

2004-08-13T03:58:00.000-07:00

ahem...not really...but im flying off in a couple of hrs...so now is the time of reflection and stuff for me as to how my summer has gone..
hm..
well...it was pretty slow at first...but it did pick up eventually...you all know how things have been going for me romantically and all...and...i dont know...i think ive met someone...hope that bit works out..
as far as my resolution to go sober thru summer is concerned...i was abt as successful as u can expect me to be...all i had was one tiny shot of vodka at ziyans place a couple of days back...and that totally not counts!...brie...be proud of me!! I DEMAND IT!!
sports wise...basketball goooooood! i lost weight coz of it...and i wanna keep it off....im totally working out again from this semester onwards!!
gaming wise...im a console gamer hardcore thru and thru now!! so thats pretty awesome
friends wise...ive really diversified my friend circle..and i wouldnt have it any other way now...ive made some new friends...pretty much said good bye to some old ones...and im at a happy place now...and i dont see myself regretting anything at any point in time..
erm....as far as my social life is concerned...its at a standstill...cant wait to come back to school and interact with ppl again...yes...im even including you in there ALEX!!
really psyched abt having all my friends around...should be pretty awesome...and im actually looking forward to waking up everyday wth a purpose again...
really sucks that im leaving my parents again for a yr or so...and its gotta be rough for them...but i wanna go now...i think ive had my fill of home for a yr or a couple of yrs...
for those of u who wanna call me up while im in Kahlifohnia....the number is 626.337.4331....hopefully ill be around.....
ill be reaching portland on the 22nd of august...by reading this post of mine...u have agreed to be contractually obligated to wait for me to get to campus...i have a bunch of ur phone numbers and all...but id appreciate it if the rest of u mail me ur phone numbers at humanshield01@yahoo.com

thats all for now..
next post is from LA
WOOHOO!!

update....update

2004-08-03T20:38:00.000-07:00

so its been a painfully long time since i updated my blog...so here it is...
so much has happened since the last time i worked on a blogpost...here they are..

my alienation with the ppl i used to hang out with continues...as i now end up hanging out with naweed much much more than ishad, fariha and farhan...its something i should prolly address, but it takes two hands to clap...and im having a pretty good time with the ppl i hang out with now...

the reunion was all right...nothing that exceptional...met up with old friends...showed off my awesomeness...it was fun...the actual reunion sucked major ass tho...as i now have this burning hatred for mainstream bands...and this mainstream band called MILES performed in the concert and promptly sucked it up hardcore...

i also got hit upon by this gay dude at sweetmax...it was an interesting experience..the ice cream and the company of friends was pretty awesome...but god decided to screw me out of having a total blast by sending a gay dude along...i have nothing against gay ppl..i just get creeped out when they decide to hit on me...

ive been playing a shit load of games lately...psi ops kicks major ass...gladius is still fun...ive also got waaaay too many games collected over summer...i need to finish them all one by one...right now...im playing golf on ps2...which is a pretty sweet deal as well..

im flying back real soon...hopefully my new post is gonna be from LA or Portland...ill post my time of arrival and all of that so that u guys can refer to it on this site...ill do that later....i cant wait to come back either...god knows ive been bored out of my mind here..

its gonna suck leaving some ppl behind over here...as always parents are there all the time...whether u need them or not...but im always at least a bit sad when i say good bye to them...they seem so depressed...and my bros leaving this summer too...so thats gotta be rough for them...ppl like diya, diti, sabrina, sarah...im gonna miss them shitloads too...they tried to be there for me as much as they could...to kinda lift me out of my perpetual boredom...for that...i can never thank them enough...arman and naweed..ive only recently started hanging out with them big time...and im kinda surprised that i dint hang out with them more before...and last but not least...ziyan...my brother from da hood (heh..always wanted to say that)....dude...next time were both in bd....we so gotta hang out big time...

but at the same time...its gonna be fun meeting up with my other set of friends...charles....who has acknowledged me as his baige assed messiah!....brendonator...who i dint get to talk to much over the summer...which makes me want to hang out with him all the more...brie..with her awesomeness (apparantly im her number one fanboy)...jon...my mentor on the way of the bastard...cory...with all his pent up rage (dont kill me dude!)....brian...our resident d&d guru....brett...my arch nemesis....and so so so so so so many other ppl...YAY!

more updates coming up later ppl...this time...i promise!

remember...u deal with a jet plane the same way u deal with a woman...be daring AND delicate at the same time!! (not my quote!)

2004-07-04T14:27:00.000-07:00

hm..two weeks and nothing to write a half decent blog post abt...i feel accomplished!
er..not really been doing much lately..a bit of internship...a bit of basketball..a bit of soul searching...a bit of concert going...
think im gonna learn how to cook properly...tht way ill start making kickass curry!
reviews said the spidey game sucks ass...im still gonna buy it tho!
not watching the spidey movie yet...gonna watch it when i go back to portland...
ishads coming back tomorrow...let the good times roll!
gonna be watching some obscure animes tomorrow...wonder wht theyre gonna be like..
theres a high school reunion on the 29th..could be interesting...or could be the worst thing ever...knowing my luck...prolly the second..
and before u all decide to go feminist on my ass...the title is from macross zero...and may or may not reflect my opinion..
feel like having some dimsum...i blame art for hooking me on to tht shit!
oh..so i went to this concert today...saw this group called deathwish..cheesy name...sucky band...they did this cover of smooth criminal by alien ant farm which was a cover of michael jacksons smooth criminal...and i think tht was one cover too many...they were terrible...
i dint realize how much i missed rain..walked in the rain today...it felt awesome!
and as far as the dilemma regarding long term vs short term relationships was concerned..nothing could have been easier to figure out..take each relationship as it comes...
ahh nuggets of wisdom..im full of them!

call me buddha!

2004-06-22T06:17:00.000-07:00

So I'm feeling a bit philosophical and down today and I figured that I'd spread the joy a bit. So without any further delay, here are things which I feel people should remember each and every moment of their lives:

Never take the people who love you for granted. You're really gonna miss them when they're not around anymore.

Never forget to look at the bigger picture. Too often we become engrossed in the small dramas of our lives and forget what truly matters.

Never let Autumn dye your hair blue (unless you want a blue scalp to go with it...which doesn't get you the hair stylist's number...god she was cute!!)

Always take the time to look out for your friends, whether theyve become totally different people or not.

Never try to attain the level of philosophical depth that I have attained. May cause serious headache...

I could go on for a while but tht'd make my blog the most boring blog in human history. So I'm gonna stop now.

Onto happier news. Euro 2004 is in full swing, and although my team crashed out in the first round (AGAIN!) it's actually turning out to be a real decent tournament.

I discovered that I am dead sexaaay. This girl at the shopping mall actually asked for my e mail address and phone number, which I gave her. But that's probably gonna be it, coz I dont feel like taking it any further.

Again, I can't wait for the new Spidey game to come out. It's gonna kick so so much major ass!!

random quote of the week :"cant decide? flip a coin...the coin never lies!" (ME)

so thats all for now...for further depression (or maybe inspiration)...tune in next week..same blog time...same blog channel!

YAY PISTONS!

2004-06-16T02:19:00.000-07:00

For those of you who are unaware of this bit of news....THE PISTONS WON!! YAY!!
other than that....I LOVE MY FUNKY HAT!! YAY!!
ive lost my touch...not...getting...dates...SUCK!!
im buying a shitload of more games today....YAY!!
im totally sober this summer...YAY!!

4 YAYS and 1 SUCK, thats not bad for a couple of days!!

phear my l33t skillz!

2004-06-13T02:10:00.000-07:00

That's right!! I kick gaming ass!! I have finally found my true calling. It's console games, and maybe basketball, but definitely not PC games, unless its Neverwinter Nights, whatever. This really isn't going anywhere.

So....I finished rainbow six 3 in....check that...2 days. And that too while I've been dealing with other games (Manhunt, Ballers).Manhunt is one of the most fucked up games Ive ever seen in my life. It's about snuff movies!! OH MY GOD ITS ABOUT SNUFF MOVIES!! For those of you who dont know wht that means, your happier not knowing about it.

Uh...my resolution of going throught the entire summer sober is going just fine. There has been a couple of temptations from different places (Ziyan and his damn Hukkah). But Ive held out well. Congratulate me people!!

The 4th game of the NBA finals is a couple of hrs away, and guess who Im rooting for?? This is a quiz, winner gets whatever he or she wants!!

GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PISTONS!!

ahem, so, Euro started yesterday, kickass! Another way I can keep my mind off of my life!

Aaaaaaaaaand, my internship starts tomorrow, Im planning to buy a kickass TV with tht money when I go back on campus. Only thing I need to figure out now is how much Im gonna get paid. The reason for me not knowing is tht I just wanted this to keep myself busy.

Diya's gonna be away for the week, suck. At least Ditis here. We'll go and visit Diya while she's away. Think she'll like that.

On another note, Im buying one of the funkiest caps ever today. Farhan spotted it for me, and by god, if anything can cover up my afro, this cap can!!

hm, mindless rambling, bet this is what blog is all about.

Has anyone checked out the trailer for spidey 2? the new one, that is!! SPIDEY SWINGS ON DOC OCKS METALLIC ARMS!! HOW AWESOME IS THAT!!! I feel like a fan boy right now.

3 parties, 5 days, hope I can survive this stretch.

I love my den!! I dont wanna leave this place!! But yet, I have to step outdoors...

And people should check out the lyrics for Eulogy by Tool, I showed it to Charlie boy a week or two back. Its awesome!!

Thats all for now!! Later people!

goooooooooooooo pistons!!

2004-06-11T04:02:00.000-07:00

YAY!! The Pistons kicked the Lakers ass today...which means...WOOHOO! PARTY! (The non alcoholic one of course..I WILL go thru the rest of summer sober)...lets just hope Detroit can carry on wiht the momentum...and the Lakers get their ass handed to them.
So I bought three games today, Manhunt, Rainbow Six 3, aaaaaaaaaaaaaand (drumroll) the game thts all about the bling bling...NBA Ballers!! AWESOMO!!
Thts all for now...this was more of a quick update than an actual post...but still feel free to leave comments and lemme know how kickass I am!!

Turtles are fast!!

2004-06-10T13:26:00.000-07:00

And this isn't based on something from the discovery channel, its my own personal experience. Yep, I was shown by a turtle named Apple of all things what it means to be a speed demon.
I went to Diya and Diti's place today to unwind and relax a bit, and was then dragged to a unisex beauty parlor coz Fariha and Farhan were getting a haircut and Anika was sad and desperate. I went there, and I dint last for a minute. The hair salon ppl were looking at my hair and prolly measuring it up for a cut. But I was like, uh..the afro stays dude...and so does the goatie. And then I stepped out to have a burget with Diti, leaving Diya to deal with the dumbasses. (Burger was awesome by the way, I had an eclair after that!!)
Next we hung out for a while and I treated Diya to some kickass music videos (Nickelback and System of a Down). She dint appreciate them tho, which broke my mind and my heart. I....I....I dont think I can hang out with her anymore.
Now, on to Apple. Hes this scrawny little turtle which Diti has agreed to babysit for a friend of hers. He dint want to eat anything, so I decided to scare him into eating (I know, not the smartest thing to do...) So I picked him up by the shell and set him down on the ground...and then...boom!! He jumps up at least a couple of inches up in the air and sets off at light speed. I fall back and run the other way (first rabid insane puppies, and now killer turtles!! Nature wants to wipe out the human race!!). Fortunately Diti caught Apple and set him down in the tank again, and I went back to the room. Now I dont wanna call myself a coward, on the contrary, I think Ive taken some insane risks before without giving it a second thought, but animals just freak me out. The only animal which is not a threat to me is ...uh...prolly dead!! Lemme know how many ppl I offended with tht last statement.
So that was about it. I came back home, played soccer on PS2 until 2 in the morning. And now I'm writing on this blog thingy. Kickass...

So, on to Euro 2004. Only a couple of days away. I hope and pray to god that Holland wins this time! They damn well deserve it; theyre one of the most prodigious team I have ever seen in my life. And, if that doesnt happen, I want Spain to win, coz well, they never do, and I feel bad for them.

Aaaand, Im officially on the NSO thingy, which means I'll be back on campus on the 22nd of August. Prolly gonna be dead bored the first week coz no one will be here. So, if anyone decides to drop by and pay me a visit, Id appreciate it. God I feel like a sad lonely little boy!

Pfft...whatever...two post in two days...woohoo! Im on a roll!

God I hate the Lakers!

2004-06-08T21:18:00.000-07:00

Like the title says....God I hate the Lakers!! Basketball is one of the very few things that are keeping me going right now, and the Lakers are destroying it for me. Is it wrong for me to be rooting for Detroit coz they deserve more respect than the Lakers? I want the hard work and dedication of Detroit to win over the drama queens that are the LA Lakers. *Sigh*...
Other than that, uh, prolly gonna hang out with Ziyan, Shaq and Naweed. Naweed's finally back,yay! Finally people who have tastes and influences similar to mine! If only Mini, Navid and Sadaat were here right now!
Alarming news, I dropped 5 pounds already. I tried my best not to, am I a freak? I wanted to gain 10 pounds over the summer, and now this? Kinda messed up.
For all my friends who are soccer fans (that'd be zero, but I dont care!), Euro is staring in a week. It's a tournament among European countries thats gonna take 3 weeks. Heaven!!!! Funny thing is though a friend of mine (I wont name names, but it was Tamjid) was whining and bitching abt why Brazil and Argentina aren't playing. I told him to consult the map.
Hm, that's all for now. One last question, anyone know of a girl who meets the following criteria:
1. Intelligent
2. Cute
3. Gamer
4. Sports fan?

If you do, can I have her phone number?? Hehe.

So that's all for now. Hope this satisfies your desire for a new blog post Charlie Boy!

So did you hear the joke about the cannibal who dumped his girlfriend?

2004-05-30T03:19:00.000-07:00

Ah, so many things to do, so little time to do them all! Yesterday was fun. I hung out with Fariha, Anika and Farhan. We went to this place called Jatra, and then we chilled on Farhan's roof. And that's when my deep dark secret was revealed. Small puppies terrify me. And Joe Black (damn you Farhan!!) was running after me all the time. We also took some interesting pics using Anikas funky cell phone, I knew she'd come to some use.
Other than that, I dint know wrestling was totally fake! I knew it was partially fake, but wht the others told me broke my heart and my mind. My entire life has been a lie.
That's all. More coming up later. And people, send your pics to me! I'll try to post them on this site!!

you're a...bad....bad man!

2004-05-26T03:53:00.000-07:00

Hm...updates...not much happening really. I'm having a good time here now. Things are really looking up. Finally got to hang out with Sabrina a bit, that was pretty awesome. I'm heading to Diya's place now. Gonna hang out with her tonite. Think her exams went well. Other than that, I found out that Spineshanks an awesome band. Need to get more of her music. On another front, I'm actually gonna go and get a *gasp* job! Let's see how that works out. And I still have my touch in basketball...oooh yeh!!

When east meets west...

2004-05-23T03:25:00.000-07:00

Ok, so I got to talk to a bunch of people today...and that definitely cheered me up. This place doesnt seem so messed up anymore. And if nothing else, I can always hang out with Diya. She seemed concerned that I'm bored over here, and she promised that we'll hang out a lot once she's done with her exam in three days. Thats something i really appreciated.
Also, I bought a bunch of DVDs today. I couldn't believe that this store we have over here called Electronics Museum has DVDs of South Park, Invader Zim and Clone High!! YAY!! I'm gonna buy all of those.
On a more important level (at least for me personally) I would like to call this the year of great games. Never before has so many great games come out all at once. Here are the games that Ive gotta play when they come out:
THIEF 3 (God of all stealth games, Hitman, Ghost Recon and stuff have got nothing on this game)
DOOM 3 (ITS BAAACK!)
HALF LIFE 2 (DONT NEED TO SAY ANYTHIGN ABOUT THAT)
CITY OF HEROES (SO PROMISING...HOPE ITS NOT LIKE FREEDOM FORCE)
SPIDEY (MUST.....PLAY.....THIS ONE!!)
GTA SAN ANDREAS (THEY ALL KICK ASS!!)
DRIV3R (PLAY IT!!!)

yep...so for all of u who are wondering wht to look forward to in life, there you have it. In the honest opinion of this dork, there is still hope for the gaming industry. And I was thinking of something, wouldn't it be awesome if you had one single controller which worked for all consoles. You wont have to make the annoying transitions between different consoles in that case. Something to think about, hmm. I pitched the idea to Brie, she didn't think too much of it. But she can't crush my dream!!

As you can tell from this post, I am feeling much better. And all the credit for that goes to Diya and Diti who always seem to make the time to talk to me and hang out with me no matter what exams they have on the next day. Good luck for the exams too!!

Finally, I just came to the conclusion that Marilyn Manson is one of the most intelligent musicians ever. Dont let the looks or the set up scare you, try to listen to the songs, theyre f***ing amazing!!

And one last thing, Charles, Brendon, Brie and Jon (actually anyone for that matter) I am growing a goatie in an effort to look like Gandhi (not the historic one; the clone high one!!). Wish me luck on this!!

Thank god i have the bat alphabet soup decoder!!

2004-05-22T05:55:00.000-07:00

Ok, so it's official. My existence over here over the course of the summer is going to be as pointless as it can be. Everyone's busy with their own thing!! ARRGH! And here I was hoping for something fun to do over summer. Sigh...oh well, I guess I'll just head back early.
So today's gonna be a bit interesing for me. Theres the final of the FA cup today. That's a soccer tournament for those unaquainted with the finest sport the world has to offer. Here's hoping that Manchester United can end up with some silverware by the end of the season. That's the only way we ManU fans can prove that Man united ending the season without a trophy is nothing more than an aberration.
More relatives, GOD THEY JUST KEEP ON COMING!! I just want some time to myself.
I talked to my parents about what I wanna do when I grow up. Turns out I have no f***ing clue!!
I just wanna go back and hang out with Charles Brie and Brendon again!! Is that too much to ask???

What is it that you saaaay?

2004-05-21T10:11:00.000-07:00

Ok, so I'm back from this family reunion like thingy right now. It couldn't have been worse for me in any way shape or form. For starters, my quest for the perfect spicy food continues, and secondly I dont remember half the people who were there. Suckiness. Whatever, at least I made out of it alive. I just realized how much Ive changed, appearance wise. I walked infront of this cousin of mine, Sasowan, and she didnt even recognize me. I blame my afro and beard for that.
Ok, so I found the coolest thing ever in Dhaka. Sadaat, SK and I went to this shopping mall to hang out a bit, and they sold CDs with music videos and stuff. We just have to ask them for specific videos and theyll download it for us and give them to us. And it only costs about 5 bucks!!! How cool is that?
Lastly heres a shout out to Diti, who was miffed that I didnt mention her in the first blog. Well, here you are Diti, heres me going on the record saying that you suck, hard!!!
Ahem, so.. yep, thats all for now!! Till the next time!

First post: And so it begins!!

2004-05-21T00:54:00.000-07:00

Ok. So, here's my first post. For those of you who didn't have the misfortune of meeting me, I'm Adnan. Originally from Bangladesh, I'm going to Portland for college right now. At this moment though I am in Dhaka (thts home!). It's my summer vacation right now, and I've started off on this blog cause I'm bored and easily entertained. Besides, it seems interesting. Anyways, so I'm in Dhaka right now. It's kinda boring. There's nothing for me to do. The only things that offer me any scope of doing something interesting are basketball and martial arts, and I'm working on those. I'm also hanging out with my friends here and all, at least Sadaat and Diya. I'll be swinging by Sabrina and Luzat's place really really soon. Hm... other than that, I'm kinda playing video games now (soccer and wrestling), they're all right. The only thing of any interest that
i did yesterday is that I became the champion in "Smackdown" playing as Edge. Now that's an accomplishment! Ok! Ok! So you know I'm having a boring time right now. So the way I'm seeing it right now, there are a couple of options. The first option is for me to head back to Portland early (anime convention in LA in July) and the second one is to rot over here until Ishad comes back from New York. Now that would make things really interesting. That's coz Ishad, Navid and I are basically partners in crime and things really dont seem that interesting without having them around.
This summer has been really wierd for me so far. I didn't realize how much college has changed me since I came back. Of course, it's not only me, it's everyone else as well. But what has happened is that I just don't seem to be into the things my friends over here are into. They enjoy their parties and concerts, whereas I just wanna stay back with my friends and watch some movies or something. I think I've really mellowed out. The only other person who I have noticed changing a lot is Diya, a lot more grown up and matured. Of course I still see her as my little sister (or was that older sister?) and so I don't let that matter too much in our friendship.
Let's see, other than that, things are moving pretty slowly. The only people I am regularly in touch with from school in Portland are Brendon, Brie and Niku. Charles being the assclown that he is refuses to come online and so I havent chatted with him yet. He's my roomie next year, things should be interesting, at least better than last year. I kinda wish I took other people's addresses and stuff (people like Brian and Brett) coz I don't know how to reach them.
So that's all for now. I am gonna go and try and find something interesting to do. Tune in very very soon for more exciting updates and developments.